Butterflies and Bravery

On the Lighter Side

September 14, 2022 Season 2 Episode 17
Butterflies and Bravery
On the Lighter Side
Show Notes Transcript

After last weeks very somber episode, we thought it would be nice to do something a little lighter this week. Whisper and Jemima share stories about THC and other gummies, some funny sex stories and a whole lot more. We hope you laugh your ass off like we did!

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  📍   Welcome everyone to butterflies and bravery. I'm your host whisper and my best friend's Jemima. Your other house is here.   we know our last recording was of a much more somber note.  intense. So we, yes, very intense. So thought we'd. Just lighten the mood a little bit with our episode this week 

, I was telling Jemima, I've got plans to travel this week heading over to Austin my first time in Austin, Texas. it's probably not the best time of the year to go, but , I'm going for the book launch of the , collaborative book that I'm part of.

And so I'm pretty excited about that. Dare to express. Yeah. Nice. When does it come out? The six. . Yeah so 16th of September folks dare to express. Whisper has a chapter in there, which you heard before the final edits.

 I did a little bit more tweaking and updating it and in its full version, it's out now and yeah. The first, I think for the first two days that it's out, they're gonna have the ebook down to it's 99 cents to purchase the ebook.

So yeah, if you, if anyone wants to grab it, please please feel free. And I appreciate any reviews that you wanted to leave to. Cause that's always a thing, right?  The algorithm that gets us going . Yep. , so you were telling me about the gummies that your mom sent you. My mom had called me a little bit ago and was like, oh, I got these gummies that have melatonin in it.

She knows that I have that I really struggled sleep in. So she's I have these gummies that have melatonin in them and I don't like Middleton. Do you want 'em? I was like, yeah, sure. But this was  weeks ago, I hadn't even thought of it until  they opened the bag  , I looked at it.

I was like, oh yeah, these things., I shouldn't say, I don't know why, because I think there's lots of things that my mom does without really thinking it through. But like, why would you send  meltable candy in the mail during heat wave?

She's it's hot. I,

wow. You get it. And you're like, oh, this is one dose. I'm just going to eat the whole thing. This is an awfully lot of gummy for one dose, but alright. Oh my God. So the Sur the serving size is two gummies. Okay. There's meant.

To be 30 servings in this practice. So 60 that's 60, so 60 that's easy then just divided in half. Those two are 30 divided in quarters. It's 15 are now one and 60 gummies are now one  I'm like, yes, mom, this will definitely put me to sleep. She's do you need sleep aid?

you don't wake up for three days. Everybody's what the hell? You're like. I ate that gummy. My mom said,  that gummy? It was party  oh my God. Yep.  

Thank you for the one gummy. That was a bag of gummies.

thank you for the one large gummy.



That's like people that eat too many of the THC gummies or, you've, I'm sure you've heard those stories where you get this one thing and it's supposed to be 10 doses and they're just like, oh, I'm just gonna eat the whole thing.

And then woo. They go crazy. Hit on THC though. Oh yeah. You've never had an experience with gummies oh, you never ate too many. Oh. Oh okay. Sorry. I'm I'm thinking CBD. No. Yeah. Yes. Edibles THC has edibles. It's an entirely different drug. Yes. And I accidentally ate too many.

Yes  yes, that is true. Almost everybody has that story of too many too, of when they've tried. THC is edibles. that has happened. It was on the flight to LA to record the people magazine documentary. Okay. Yeah. I was nervous as all get out. Because they had changed everything. My whole flight thing, I was supposed to go to New York and then all of a sudden I'm going to LA, I had to stay the night up there in Moscow.

There was like 10 feet of snow. We couldn't just go home first. They're like, just go home. I'm like that's not an option.  Moscow. Moscow in, yes. In Idaho. Yes. Yes. We were stuck up there and then they said, oh no, never mind. You're going to LA now. So yeah, we had got some gummies for the trip.

And so I decided I should. Five what's the normal, what was the normal dose? Like one. Okay. One, one is the normal,  one is a normal dose, I'm like, okay, maybe two would be good. . I'm just going to eat five. Oh my God. I was  shaking my leg, the whole flight,  shaking the whole row of seats, the whole flight, and so nervous and hyperventilating and just totally freaking out like a two hour panic attack.

that's terrible. Why? So you're saying the THC made it worse. It just sent me into, I couldn't sit still. I was literally like shaking. I kept apologizing to the lady next to me, cuz I was shaking the whole roll of seats from shaking my leg so much. From being so nervous. Was it a sativa?

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Which usually, that's, it was a little bit of too much of the upper, a little bit too much of the upper . Yeah. For anyone listening, who's not sure what that all means. There's two strains of THC  not strains. Isn't the right word to use.

Families. Yeah, families. There you go. Families of strains. One's called sativa and the other's called indica and the indica tends to be more the relaxing fall asleep family. And this Sativa's generally the more creative, keeping you up. All of it supposed is supposed to relax you, but  probably not.

When you eat taking on a flight. Yeah. Not when you eat too much, not when you eat too many and you're already nervous. I've heard people say that when they've taken too many edibles that it's made them sick, like throwing up sick, not me, not at all.

 That's the only adverse,  aside from obviously thinking you're gonna die. , that's the only adverse physical thing I've ever heard of quote unquote, overdosing on THC, which is yeah. The worst you can get, I guess I'm paranoia and yeah.  No, it doesn't feel good. I'm sure.

But actual  physical. Yeah. Yes, I have done that also. But not from eating them from smoking too much. Oh, you've  gotten sick to , your stomach from smoking too much. Yes.  from a blunt. I don't know if it maybe had something to do with smoking too much of the tobacco.

Oh yes. Okay. That makes sense because it wasn't just the marijuana. It was a blunt. Yeah.  You know how, like when you get sick on tequila or something like no more. Yeah. I'm I was like okay. Yep. Nope. Never ever smoking a blunt again, at least not one wrapped in a tobacco leap.

They have 'em wrapped in like hemp leaves now. That's fine. Not in. Yeah. It made me so sick.  I'd never smoked like tobacco, nicotine. But when we first came here to California and.  I was separated and I was going out a lot in the evenings  and so that  was a thing you'd go out to the bars, and then you drink and   a lot of people like to smoke when they drink. , I didn't like being left alone in the bar when I was out with somebody, if they'd step out to smoke. So I would, follow 'em out there cuz everybody would all go at the same time.

 I started trying to, to get with the program and do some smoking. And  it always just  tasted horrible and people were like, yeah you'll think that at first, and I just, I kept trying and I was like, this is not happening for me.

It was just so awful. One time was really funny. There was this group of people we went out with didn't know everybody  some of them were my sister's friends and it was me and this guy and we were standing out on the patio and people were coming and going. I think the, most of the crowd had gone back inside and it was just me and him sitting there and he had the cigarette and he passed it to me.

And I was like, okay. And I took a hit and I passed it back to him. And he was like, took a hit and gave back. And finally I I was like, no, actually I. I don't want any I actually don't smoke. He's like neither do I. I was just trying to give it to you.  like we kept passion back and forth.

No, you, no, you take it. No, you take it.  oh my God. That is so freaking funny. We know each other. So we are all  no you, no, you go, no, you go . So he was  what are we doing? And I was like, I have no clue.

That's funny, dude. That was the moment I was like, I am never gonna do this again,, I'll just go out there and hang with them. I don't have to like, pretend to try it and smoke, right? Yeah. Just to be out there.

 We're gonna tell some funny stories.  I listened to last week's episode.  and I realize, listen to myself, I do. I make really long pauses in between some of the, my sentences, like what I'm doing right now, because I went through that course of  public speaking or whatever, and they were telling us that's a trick that people use to not say and err, all the time is to just speak slower, put pauses or, and I'm listening to it.

And I. Oh, so that's what Obama's doing all the time.

I was like, that's what was going on the whole time? Cause I was like, this is really a affected sort of speech. And then I'm listening to myself doing that. I'm like, oh, damn short bursts of genius. , I have two funny sex stories.  oh my gosh. Yes.  Okay. So once upon a time, no Tim and I got married back in 2006, so this was probably in about 2006 . He used to work at a restaurant and it was very close to the house.

So he would come yes at the Ram. And so he would come back for lunch break. I still miss their cheese and crapped it. That  and I don't like crap. That was so good. Sorry, go on. They got some good food. I'll tell you they had dancing good food. So he came home from lunch for lunch, and every day he would make Pico de aisle as part of the prep.

He would go in at eight o'clock from eight to 11. He did prep for lunch or at the restaurant at the restaurant for the restaurants whole day, he'd cut all the lettuce. He'd make all those sauces and the Pico de Gaos and the salsas and do all the like crispy noodles and GLA pecans.

And they did that every single day. So he'd come in every single day and spend three hours prepping and then three to four hours working and then be off.  Normally, when he cut the Pico because of the jalapenos, he would wear gloves. And also because it's a restaurant, but for some reason this day, he didn't have gloves on when he was cutting the jalapenos.

Oh no. So he comes online, I talking about jalapenos and you said, this is a funny story about sex. Like I already do not like this

immediately do not like  we're newlyweds. So we're all like, bumping, ugly all the time. Cuz that's what you do. And we start fooling around and he like starts putting his fingers down there and I'm like oh ow. That's that, that, that hurts. That hurts. And then he is oh yeah, that's right.

Get the JS without the wait. When does this become funny?

Sure. So then he like, bends me over doggy style on the couch, puts it in. Oh no. And then he's oh, ouch. Oh my God. That does hurt. O ouch. Ouch. And this was back in 2006. Okay. So I don't know if anybody remembers the taco bell commercials with the little Chihuahua it's cuz I'm spy . So I'm bent over the couch.

He's ouch. In an ouching because his pee pee's starting to hurt and I say it's oh God.

Oh, no Adams. You went to the kitchen and sat in a bucket of milk. Oh, pretty much. Yep. Oh my God. So it's did he laugh though? Oh yeah. No, the sex was over. It was just a huge laughing fit, ensued. It wasn't hurt, yeah. It was burning. Geez. Yes. Just like it burned your mouth.

It burned your, your hoo. So, Oh, mm-hmm it had to be worse. Do not try this at home. Oh gosh. Or anywhere.  Or I'm a Metro.  have this. It reminds me. Have you ever had to have one of those scans where they, where  they inject you with That contrasting gel or whatever you've had that.

Okay. So arthrography oh really? Oof. . At least that's what they called it when I had it. Yeah. I, it on my shoulder. Oh, okay. So it was back when they thought that I had cancer, that when I got that cancer scare real bad. And so I was going in for a full body scan and, the nurse, or I guess it was a nurse and she was like, oh, so I just wanted to warn you that this can make, some of your extremities warm.

And I was like, what do you mean? She's like your toes and your, tips of your finger and stuff. So they check me  , so I'm getting the scan done. I'm like,  Holy fuck my figures and my toes are not the problem right now.

Really need to not be warning people about the extremities extremities. It was dead center. Something much more important than you needed.

Oh my God, that reminds me of that reminds me of when McKayla was born. And you were there. Remember, do you remember when she started to crown? I was like,

. The fucking things that our mothers told us about what prepare for, with childbirth were very terrible and very off centered. Oh yeah. And plus , I don't know about you, but I would assume that the situation was the same with you.

I didn't take any pain meds, nothing. I didn't take an epidural. I didn't take pain meds afterwards. Weren't allowed to, I did not take one fucking thing cuz every time they offered it to me, I'm like Nope. Thank you. Like I don't wanna it's against my religion or whatever. I don't wanna get loopy.

And I just remember sitting on the couch. My vagina hurt so fucking bad. I couldn't even, I had to put that donut thing under me.  Cause it . Yeah. And I was like, I thinking back in retrospect, I'm like, what the fuck? Why did I take the goddamn

motherfucker? Like 10 stitches? Because I pushed when I was supposed to pull or whatever,

don't think you're supposed to pull, but yes, I get what you're saying. ,  my thing was that my mom had said  that contractions weren't painful. She literally told me con contractions weren't painful. And so I'm having contractions with my first kid or I'm walking around the hospital.

And , I got to this one point where all I was doing repeating over and over, I was like, I'm never fucking telling my child, this does not hurt. I am never fucking telling my child. Like I just kept saying that over and over. I was so pissed off at her at that moment. I was like, I needed, I need to prep for this.

So of course,  now , I tell my kids when they were asking, I was like, oh yes. It's  the very worst possible period cramps you have. And then times are by 10. And that's pretty much around where you're gonna hit that's around where you're gonna hit and all over your whole body, because , they don't just happen in your belly.

Like when you're on your period, it's like your whole fucking body cramps. Of course afterwards, I said something  about that to my mom. And I I was like, why did you mislead me? Like that? She was like it's just cuz  the whole experience is so beautiful.  It doesn't hurt. I was like, you mean  it doesn't hurt metaphorically.

Is that  basically what does that.

Probably if they told us the truth about how much it was gonna hurt most of us would've been like then I'll skip I'll. All maybe not. Yep. Plus I'm sure you attended births also. That was kinda a thing, have everybody go to the parents? Yeah. All the births I attended were ladies that had, 4, 6, 8, 10 kids, babe.

No, I'm sorry. But those babies just , slapping out like a hot dog down hallway. They were just slid right down the shoot. Like we're going to the hospital six hours later, we're going home. No fucking joke. It was like, I'm gonna have this baby. Next thing I know it's falling out of her vagina.

I'm like, what? That's that easy? Yeah, sure. Love to have children. Nope Nope. 36 hours for me. , which, by the way, that actually has nothing to do with the fact that as so many men think that you get stretched out and it change. It's not because of that. It's because your body remembers what's going on.

Yeah. Your body's oh, okay. Yes. Yep. I got this in the bag. Your body's let me just take care of it.  yeah. And then the more it happens, the more your body's okay, we got this, we know what's going on. Exactly. We've got, we've already done this 10 times. It's gonna be, it has nothing to do, has nothing to do with actually, like you're more stretched out,  you can gain elasticity

but you don't get stretched out so to speak. Yeah, that's funny. . For, as supposedly educated, we were in so many things. We were also strangely uneducated, like it's this weird,  crossover. Yeah, it's we almost have one side of everything. And because I know  now, how that is,, whenever  in a movie or a TV or whatever and someone's like, oh,  I was homeschooled and I'm like you know what that means.

,  , you have a certain amount of real smarts but no application whatsoever.    Oh, if you remember  that other movie that they showed us  a fair amount of times was blue lagoon.

Do you remember that? Yeah. And , she had that baby and it was just like, and  now of course,  having kids and being a mom, , if I think back on that, I was, like,, first of all, who made that movie? Cuz they'd never been to a birth or had a kid or had anything to do with that because like, how do you just know immediately and easily how to have a baby go into the water, have a water birth, which is challenging in the very best of circumstances with the very most  most educated midwives to not also knowing how to fucking feed your child because yeah.

Anyways, coconut, do you remember that scene? Yeah, baby coconut.  Yes, we were very poorly educated. And those matters.

you remember the sex classes?

the handbooks. What was it called? The,

 I can't remember what it was. I feel like we had so many. Yeah. But there was one like put out in nineties, early nineties, maybe early mid nineties. That was like, gentleman and ladies or some shit like that. Oh yeah. And remember, I was like teaching you how to give a blow job, like telling you to like, you know, like a banana and wait, you were telling me no, the book.

Oh, the book. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. The book and explained all about how the head of the penis has all the feeling and this is how you're supposed to suck. You're supposed to open your mouth here and close your. Like serious graphic classes. I feel like I blacked out at that point.

oh, my haunted

it's terrible. I probably was like, oh, I don't need to know this at all.  yeah, it was a little bit too educational.

Oh, okay. So my other sex story is really funny. Yes. . You did have two. This one was rather recently this year

I quit eating sugar about a year and a half ago.  And we're old. So sometimes we go for a while without having sex  plus I'm ING getting menopausal. So my vagina's a fountain of blood  I know. Yeah. It's bad. I'm lean like, Ugh. So just unreasonable. I bled for two months straight almost.

 That was already like seven years ago. Like I've been going through this shit a long fucking time. Oh my gosh. Yeah. It's not that bad now. Like now they're more regular, but when they come, it's so heavy, 

too much, my whole body just so tired and achy and my cramps, like off the chart. So you went back to having regular, like you have regular periods now. Like every, basically I have regular periods once a month, too. Yep, exactly. But I'll spot for two weeks. Okay. Yeah. Before it there's not a lot of time that I'm not actively bleeding, like a dying moose, that does.

Yep. Next life as well. So, We were doing it, doing it, , doing it, doing it, doing it  and he's like, I don't remember you having this much energy. And I was like, it's sugar free and

same situation as the spicy one. It was a rollover and laugh. And let's go get dressed cuz now we're just laughing.

. You need like a t-shirt that says warning may crack jokes during sex. Yeah. Oh my God. You're right. I do need that. T-shirt cause that's what I do. I do it all the time and I don't know why, so often those are just two of the really funny ones, but I literally do it.

All the time. I don't know why. It just, all of a sudden it's something is funny to me. I'll just start busting out, laughing that nothing. It's all.

I'm like, I don't love laughing during sex though. It's so great.  and then, you're really comfortable and, yeah. 

It's supposed to be fun, right? Exactly. It shouldn't be like a scary or terrifying, which, it can be, but I know. Yeah. Yeah. Not to get, not to go into a dark space, but I had one of those ex you don't have 'em very often to me, but  where I got a memory dislodged  that was connected to this movie.

And what happened was

 It was on a list somewhere. And I was just like, oh my God. And I'm completely forgotten about it. And do you remember it was called Ryan's daughter? That sounds very familiar. I don't remember what it's about. She, the title sounds for she's like this really young girl that gets married off to this old teacher, and then  she ends up meeting that soldier who has  PTSD.

, but what reminded me of that is just because the ,  she was young, she was like a child in this. She got married to this old, older  man. And it was back in, like early, I think it was like world war I era even. And so sex was like, she had a nightgown up to her neck, all buttoned up and her, her wedding night was like, pull,  pull up the bottom half of your night down.

And then she was laying there like all stiff with her legs and her arms and I was just like, oh my God. I remember just being so Is not supposed to be like, that's supposed to be fun. Yep.

Yeah. Maybe that's why I liked crack jokes cuz I'm like, all right, this is getting too serious. Let's start to have a little more fun over here.

Oh Lord. I crack pretty much everything though. Yeah. It just happens.



  I guess. That's all right. Cuz  I don't think I remember you ever like laughing or breaking out a joke in inappropriate time,  yeah, you make jokes and you find the joy and the humor in a lot of things, but not not like cracking jokes during a funeral or whatever.

Oh God, no, I would never do that.  Some people do they get like it's nerves and so they like, the laugh inappropriately or yes . Yeah. So it's never like that. I've had those emotions before, during funerals, but I've managed to stifle them. I have Adam though.

Yeah, for sure. Or you don't like, if something's too intense or you need to break just like you need to, to break the tension that yeah, sure. That gotta let it out.  somehow like the horses, nay and Winnie and go up on your hin legs and.

   did we ever talk about that time? About our time in Chan Mai with the spider dream? I don't think we ever told that story.

That story. . In my mind. That's definitely like one of our funnier stories.

I'm pretty outrageous. Just cause like it in, like it ended up like involving the entire fucking home, like the entire,

so I have to tell it from my side because I was one of the only people awake for the whole thing. I'm a very light sleeper, just a light sleeper is a nice way to say have problems sleeping. But how many of us were there in that room? I'm thinking like 12 or 16? No, at least because we had those Japanese folding mattresses, you know, those little.

what do they call them? Because you're in Japan. I don't remember what they're called,  it would fold up, it would fold little the thirds and then you'd have the one little, edge that would flip over. So it wouldn't exactly make a couch, but it would make a seat with a little  back yeah, a tiny little couch.

Yeah. Like a little mini on the ground sort of seat. I think there was  around 12 because we would line them up, when we would unfold them. , the room was longer rather than square and we would put yes and we put the heads together like that.

We'd put two heads together. And , it was too deep and then six wide, I think, which would make  12, 12 of. Together. Yeah. Yeah. That's what I thought it was something like that. And I don't know if there's a name for them or if they're just, I don't know.

They were just weird little mattresses that folded into chairs.  yeah. And then I thought we had sleeping bags, too. Sleeping bags or, yeah,  like our betting , when we fold them up in the morning, we would then be studying on them for whatever Bible class or something.

 it was like this really weird thing where everything happened all at once. This rollout of things, cuz like you woke up and started screaming and then . I woke up immediately because  cuz you started screaming was the first memory.  The first moment you started screaming and  woke up pretty much everybody in the room and they all started screaming. So now there's 11 teenage girls screaming. One person slept through it. Yes. So yeah, all the rest of us were up.

Yeah. All the rest of us were up. I think because I had been awake or had woken up first, I was aware of the fact that there wasn't a reason, or for some reason, I know I wasn't screaming. I was like, what is going on? That was more  my reaction. Cause  everyone got up and  they all started screaming.

And then I think at that point you were like, there was a spider on me, right? Yep. And then everybody started jumping up,  out of the beds,  people were pulling sheeps and that's right around the time, every single adult men  that was living in the home, came running in with , some form of something  umbrella.

I think you done umbrella.  A cricket bat. There was probably several of them that were not clothed. Yep. They all came running in and they were like, what was going on? And then that's. When you were like, there was a spider on me and a a big spider. And then, but at that point we had pulled, so we pulled so many sheets and blankets and pillows or whatever and I think it was J was like did you find it?

And  we were like, no, we didn't see it. And then he was like it's probably a cockroach, which was a really smart thing to say, because then they, it all, they all started screaming and running around again oh my God, it was just like pandemonium. And but what was really funny is cuz when they first came, when the men came running in with their like bats and umbrellas and whatever, they were like, what's going on.

And nobody knew like all the girls stopped and they were.  don't know. We don't just, there was a spider, so it's it was screaming then that's when you were like there was a spider. Oh my gosh. It was so funny. And that's, I think when we became aware of the fact that there were like sheets and pillows and those fold up mattresses, and I guess,  sleeping bags everywhere, except

what stole their little mattress sound asleep. Just sound asleep. Never woke up and dad was not like a small amount of screaming. There was, it was not just screaming. We were running around and cutting. We had her button stepped on it. So  yeah, probably yes. I'm sure people were falling down. It was pretty like.

Pretty intense. Oh my gosh. . I was envious of her for sure. But she was such a heavy sleeper cuz I remember one time, I don't know if you remember this as well. Another time she she had that she had this robe that she loves to sleep in and one morning she woke up and her legs were in the arms.

She

somehow in her sleep. She had put both her legs through the arms of her robe. Oh,

that is funny. She was blessed with a good sleep. Oh my gosh. That was so crazy.  nobody knew what was going on. Nice stuff, man. At least we have some funny memories from yeah. Our time growing up in the cult.

I don't know if you remember, . I think her name what's Maria, the tiete who was the cook. She was this stocky not weight wise. She was  a softball player type of woman , felt like that. And I just remember she loved BLEs and I think we had a leak garden or something.

Cuz we had, I, we had like leak soup leak.  We had some form of leak dish,  every two days  whether it was  cream leak or  soup or constant. I do like leaks. Do you like I, I, I like them then. I don't think I've had them since I've come here to the states. Really? Oh, I buy them whenever I find them at the store.

I buy them. I like to put them in my soups at the cafe.. I always make stuff up weird stuff.  I made up stuffles, stuffles is waffles made out of stuffing and then you put yeah. You take the stuffing, puts extra eggs in it, put it in the waffle maker, put mashed potatoes and gravy and Turkey and all that on top of it.

 It is really good. I bet oh, Ravi-agna. Not my latest convention, cuz I had a couple since then. I don't know why. I just always dream of these things, but yeah, Ravya because I was watching this guy make lasagna and I was like, dude, what if you used ravioli instead of lasagna noodles?

So I made Rava with ravioli's like lasagna, but instead of noodles, raviolis. It was really good. Really good. And I never had made it like this before I was watching cooking show and this Italian guy and instead of putting like a bunch of RI Rico cheese and stuff like Americans too, and their lasagna in between, obviously there's mozzarella, but other than that, instead of making like the RI Rico stuff, he made a bechamel sauce.

So  I did the same thing last time.  Last time I did it. I made my red sauce and then I made my Beel sauce and I built my layers like that with the ravioli and then the two sauces and then the ground beef and sausage, and then mozzarella and Parmesan cheese, and then repeat, repeat.

And it was really good. That's really cool. Yeah. And then what of the other thing I just made up too?  speaking of food being made up the other day, this was it was probably a couple weeks ago, at least now. My daughter asked me to pick up some oats.  She asked me to grab some stuff at the grocery store and I came back with them and she came out and she's telling me, she's describing about this thing  that.

She, I think she saw it on  TikTok or something and she's yeah. And it's this it's amazing. It tastes so good.  They call it like overnight oats. And I was like I like, I'm sorry. Just yeah. Overnight oats. I was like, She's yeah. And it's like really good. And then you can put like this peanut butter and like bananas.

And I was like, okay, explain to me what tell she starts telling about this. I was like, sweetie, that's called.

You're like, what? No,  it's I'm like, yeah, it's a, it's not a TikTok intervention.  that's funny. Yeah. There's, that's funny. ,

I remember bother invention breakfast chowder. I made a soup with potatoes, bacon, ham and sausage. And then in like a cream sauce, like a white gravy almost, but lighter  breakfast chatter. It was actually really good. Yeah. Yeah. It's almost like deconstructed biscuits, gravy, big skis and gravy.

Yeah. Yes. Yep. But with potatoes and then all the breakfast meats to just make it feel breakfasty. Yeah. Yeah. It was actually really good. But you could even do something closer to biscuits and gravy with like dumplings. True. Like using like basically. Biscuit dumplings and making something like that.

Probably pretty cool. Okay. I like that idea. So next time I do breakfast chatter put B for that.  hell yeah. That's a really good idea, dude.  stealing it. You gave it up. I'm taking it. No, you will always do a better job with that than I would. I'm sure. Oh yeah. But all of that to say that I made an Idaho onion soup where I took weeks and shallots and sweet onions and white onions.

And I cut 'em in different ways because if you cut 'em , at certain ways they don't break down. If you cut 'em a certain way, they do break down. So I made sure there was like pieces of onion in it also. Yeah. But then also the back flavor of a lot of, completely deconstructed onions.  that was the other day I accidentally made.

What do you call it? It left my brain, but I had, I was trying to make chicken St and I, I did the onions and the garlic and the chicken. And so I put the chicken in there first to cook and get all of the delicious flavors. And then the potatoes let them cook for a little bit. And then the rest of the vegetables,

that's the pattern I follow, but  my ADHD brain forgot to watch the clock after I put the potatoes in, I just slipped. So by the time it came back and I was like, oh my God, I left them on for so long. Like the potatoes had actually like pretty much disappeared. Just yeah, disintegrated.

I was like Jemiah, won't be proud of. I told her to Luke, I was like I just made a Russian dis dish accidentally.   that's funny. It's actually a really good way to thick and soup though. If you don't have anything else. Yeahs really small and they'll just break down. I'm thicken it for you.

Yeah, I didn't put, I didn't put anything in there. It works good. Huh? Other than just some cream, but yeah,  Tim likes to thicken his soups like that too. Just break down the potatoes dude. I made this other thing up.  You take a biscuit  and then put sweet and condensed milk over it.

And then a bunch of huckleberries and whipped cream. Ooh.  the basic Idaho shortcake. That's what I called it. Oh, okay. Very nice. Instead of a strawberry shortcakes Idaho short cake. Yeah. I like to get inventive and if everything goes as planned soon, I will be owning a restaurant.  Just waiting to make sure Tim's got his back in, Nick all fixed up and then we're gonna go ahead and start the paperwork.   Of course something could happen and we could not go through, I'm just, everything's tentative until it's done, but okay. There doesn't seem to be any obstacles in the way at this moment.

That's fantastic. Hell. Yes. It's about fucking time. We've been talking about doing this. I'm sure you remember ever since we've been together, like first met. Yeah. Yeah. Ever since you guys have been together, first talked about that before you guys have talked about getting married. Probably did actually seriously, and it's been 20 years now and wow.

That's wild. Hopefully it will happen. And. , I will be a very good Testament that your dreams can come true. Even if you're really fucked up

and have no confidence and blah don't have no education, have no culture. You can still be a success. And my plan is to put Kuski on the map. I'm gonna come up with all this crazy stuff and we're gonna get diners drivers and dives to come. This is like the 10 year plan.  We're gonna have a smoke stuff outside.

You know what we smoked today to put week or kiss? We made a smoked ger chicken with smoked mangoes, and then the smoked mangoes went in the fruit salad. Was it good? Really fucking good dude. That's so cool. It was really good. Yeah. Sounds amazing. I like to cook  I like to make stuff up.

deep fried peanut butter and jelly. , that's another invention of mine that I'll be serving at my restaurant.

Sounds good. And if the restaurant doesn't work out, then we'll probably get a food truck. But yeah. As of now it seems that it will be working. I have hope I have a lot of hope. Yeah. And there's so much more that you can do with it. Yes, of course. I get the, all the time. Are you sure you can be able to do this?

I don't think it's what if food's too much, dah. And then I'm like, if it doesn't scare you . Yeah. Why do it  you should be scared. A hundred percent part of the. Part of the journey  yeah, exactly. Yeah. So I'm terrified, but I'm also confident back and forth. Yeah. 50, 50,  you think?

Great.  I think it'll be great too. I have confidence between Tim and I. We've both worked in restaurants, cumulatively for 50 years. , we know a lot between the two of us about the business and yeah. And I've already been at this restaurant for eight years over, just over eight years now. That's crazy.

So I know the job, I know the food. I know the town. I know the people, plus this is like where my, it's where my family's from. Yeah. It's weird coming full circle.  I was conceived chair. I moved back here when I was what? 40,  41 when I moved here and now I'm 50 and I'm gonna get a business.

it's amazing. Isn't it? Yep. I never thought I'd be able to have any semblance of a normal life. I didn't. I really didn't.  I'm sure you felt the same way. Yeah, of course. But even though in our brains, we feel like we don't have a semblance of a normal life. If you look from the outside in, we both have at least a semblance of a normal life.

yeah. We're at least holding up the smoke and mirrors and making it look like it's all good.  When you think about it, what we have now is more of an unconventional route than anything, because.  there's people  that I know personally who have, way more money and much more.

 Much more time in their career, whatever it is, like a very conventional route who are not happy, who are miserable, who are not doing what they want to do, because they took such a conventional route that now they're stuck in it, and they're trapped, I can honestly say, and I'm sure you feel the same, but I can honestly say that I'm not doing anything right now that I don't wanna be doing. , yeah sure. I can look around and think of things that I want to be better. There are things that I hope for that I wish for all of that, like a normal, human being with a being heart, but I'm definitely not oh, I'm stuck.

I, I'm unhappy. I'm, I'm in a relationship that's, I'm miserable and blah, blah, blah. Any of that, like what I'm doing, everything that I wanna do. And  because we went to unconventional route, not by choice, but it was like, we were seeing  last week of okay even if we didn't technically choose, to have children, having children saved our lives, not only do we love them and would never ever change it.

But it also was  that added, that added benefit, and it's the same with going that unconventional route that we did. , because no one told us it couldn't be done this way. . , we're just doing it this way and

making it happen. And, I know there's a lot of other people out there going you can't do that, or you're not supposed to do that. Or that shouldn't work that way. And then I'm like it does  here we are. yeah. Never give up. No, absolutely. And sometimes you might not realize it until later, but that sometimes your disadvantage can work to your advantage more so than not having that disadvantage.

Yes. I very much agree with that statement.  and sometimes what you think is a disadvantage is not. Really a disadvantage. It's an advantage. It just seems like a disadvantage at the time. Yeah. Yeah. Or you're honestly looking at it from the perspective that you think you're meant to look at it from, conventional wisdom or conventional assumptions or whatever it might be like, you think, oh, I'm supposed to want this, or I'm supposed to want that, yeah. Perfect. That's and that's normal.  There's just, there's so many different

ways that we could be stuck or that we could be trapped and.  being trapped or being stuck is so much more of a nightmare for me than, than any other, even poverty. I'd rather be poor than be stuck or trapped. Yeah, I agree.  I don't like things stuck.

  All right. All right. All right.

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